New Killer Dyke: (Web-MA) Deb returns to a bondage kitty while there’s a disturbance in the force. http://htxt.it/CZm7

From the man who hates chirpy Puerto Rican frogs, here's a Cloud Kitty? http://vl4.us/5ao

Loki made his first WordPress post ever on KillerDyke. (Web-MA/NSFW) Shower Chase Scene: http://vl4.us/tev

The evil we spewed at each other, will forever float around on the Internet on some Archive site or on someone's hard drive.  It's like radioactive waste.  Just one drop and in turns a lot of saltwater in poison for a very long time.   Even if I do decide to hide those blog entries from the world, I won't erase my history.   I never want to forget my evils, even after I repent.  I don't want to forget the myriads of joys either.  I am not doing this as retribution.  You just happened to be unlucky enough to be involved a really unfortunate but transformational chapter of my autobiography.  I released the art we made as a act of brotherhood under the chaotic blessing Most Beautiful One into the public domain, with your unintentional blessing.  Neither one of us can undo this either.  It belongs to the world now.  I won't edit my art either... not for you... not for anyone.  I would rather it not be online at all, if I am banned from it without censure.  But in the spirit of a double-edged sword, I have not been forced to remove those pieces, so I will not.  I will still continue to create art about you regardless of your feelings on the subject..  For better or for worse, you are still a muse. It will be forever your blessing and your curse.

You can look at these actions as a negative things, or you can look them as tools of enlightenment in accordance to your Buddhist beliefs:

   1. Right View- To understand wholesome deeds, unwholesome deeds and comprehend the law of Karma.
   2. Right Intention- The intention of non-greed, non-hatred and non-delusion.
   3. Right Speech- Abstaining from false speech, malicious speech, harsh speech and idle chatter.
   4. Right Action- Abstaining from killing, stealing and sexual misconduct.
   5. Right Livelihood- Abstaining from wrong and corrupt means of livelihood.
   6. Right Effort- Awakening zeal for abandoning of unwholesome states and arising & sustaining of wholesome states.
   7. Right Mindfulness- The four foundations of mindfulness (satipattana) namely contemplation on body, contemplation on feelings, contemplation on mind and contemplation on mind-objects.
   8. Right Concentration- Abandoning of five hindrances namely lust, ill-will sloth-torpor, worry-agitation and doubt through jhanas.

- Taken from  "Religious Tolerance"

Reflect upon these thoughts my former brother of the pens which are so much mightier than swords.  Those are not my philosophical tenets, but they are supposed to be yours.  Think about the beautiful lessons that you have learned and how much closer you are to being fine.  I am a better person for being honest about my emotions, even if I had t be cruel.  I did not rage the way I did because I did not care about you.  I raged the way I did because I loved you like my were my own blood.  When it all fell to pieces I feared that whatever good was in you was superficial and false.  Prove me wrong my student.  Prove me that you are good and that you can live up to your principles.  Prove me that you can live up to the potential that you almost threw away because of your insecurity.  I am not sure not help you anymore.  I wouldn't do it on purpose if I could.  I did all I could  for you when you were family.  You are disinherited from my family, but I am sure you have your own to worry .  Your siren song broke my once mighty ship, and I will never be unable to trust your voice again.  Thankfully, I have rebuilt my vessel.  Not as mighty as she once was, but she still floats in the ocean of life.  The ship survives the chaos storms and lulls me to sleep during the calm.  She is a good ship, my life.  You swim along and tend to your own as you have been doing.

You nearly destroyed my business, our friendship and me as a person, because you didn't have the decency to be honest with me from the start about anything.  The nerve of you divulging the one secret I needed you to keep, over you desire to your assuage guilt over a sin that I would have never participated in had you been straight up with me still galls me.  Yet, there is no use in letting the past destroy my future.  I hope you look at it in a similar fashion.  I'm not angry anymore.  Like my tears, the rage is all spent.

I still will not communicate directly with you from a distance.  This is for my sanity and yours.  If you ever need to talk to me directly, do so in person, in a neutral location or write a letter.  If you'd rather not, I still understand your symbols, your sigils and motifs -- but not much else. I'd rather you not because it will tear my heart and it might incite my rage, but I am letting you know that I am not shutting your out forever, if you can do something truly extraordinary.  You were once something that went beyond best friend.  I realize that it was an illusion, but perhaps, this might be an incorrect assumption on my part.  It's up to you to decide.

Call me emo.  Call me stupid.  Call me obsessive.  Call me a bitch.  Call me an unfaithful wife.  Call me conceited.  Call me insignificant.  Call me bisexual.  Call me penis-phobic.  Call me unable to get over the past.  Call me immature.  You can even call me Bloody Pencil, even though no one call me that anymore.  Call me whatever insult  or degradatiomn you want.  I know myself well enough to discern perception from who I actually am.  Just don't call me by my name until you have something to say that actually matters to me or makes any difference.

Remember kid, a blanket does not qualify as clothing, but it can keep you warm if you use it properly.  I better go home now.

Blessing to you.  You know who you are.
Bloody Pencil

Ending the Nine Lives of Catnose was a really good move.  I feel like the ballast holding back my mental universe has been let go.  I feel so incredibly overjoyed. The brainchildren are all playing nice with each other.  Finally.  The Suckaverse finally feels seamless and real.  It's not a mishmash of separate projects anymore.  The Suckaverse is now a single art project composed of specialized and necessary parts.  This is what I always wanted, but never could achieve.  I did it.  Now you can get a glimpse of how it all works in my mind.   It took me such a long-time to feel unashamed of my mind's contents.  Thank you so much my friends for your support and guidance.  Without you all, I could not have gotten this far. 

Anyway, here's the current comic line-up and schedule:

Rasputin Catamite (Mondays - rated Web-MA)
Polska, Sucka! (Tuesdays - rated Web-MA)
Killer Dyke: The Chronicles of Ace Machiavelli (Irregular, but Loki is aiming for Wednesdays. - rated Web-MA)
Upir's Mark (Irregular,and it will remain that way. - rated Web-MA)

Other webcomic projects I hope to add by the end of this year:

Slave Butt for Satan (Thursdays- rated Web-MA on the outside and Web-AO in the members section). 
This is the super-cute, extra pervy, chibified and puppetized dark[er] side of the Suckaverse.  Featuring lost episodes from Rasputin Catamite.  Lucinda has seen some of the art, and she's already urging folks to buy memberships and t-shirts.  Hell, Lucinda's mom already bought a shirt.  It's really that awesome.
Rasputin Barxotka (Fridays - rated Web-Adults-Only, members-only and definitely NSFW.) 
This site is going to change direction soon and will be focusing almost exclusively on yaoi and bi-male BDSM storylines and art.  It will remain extremely graphic.
Soup Wars and the Butterfly Armageddon: The Mexican Graphic Telenovela to End All Mexican Telenovelas and Possibly the World (Saturdays: rated web-MA)
This is the project that I started at age 9.  Published in my blog on a limited-basis when I was 30 in text-only form.  I finally figured out how I am going to make this super-melodramatic epic of end-world Mexican, accessible to a mainstream-ish audience without completely losing the twisted romance novel schlock, the electric catgirl, or the utter Fu-Manchu-like wrongness of  Doctor Wang.  I guarantee that this is the most insane reimagining of the Monkey King story -- ever!  For those of you who have read and perhaps maybe enjoyed the original novel, you are about to get your mind completely blown apart into several different continents.  I am really excited about this one.

Anyway, that's the Vassiness for now.

Lots and lots of Suckaverse updates (many not work-safe, so be warned.)

I am going insane trying to help Loki get ready for a voice-over work audition in Minneapolis before I have to fly out to Florida. We contacted the voice-over demo guy and we'll hopefully hear from him by tomorrow.   I still have to finish packing.  I have been tying lose ends left and right.  Before I have to travel, I'll only have three matters of business to attend to:

• Getting a hold of a videographer to finalize the plans for a shoot that will take place shortly after I return home.
• Finding out how much in taxes Loki and I owe.  We just shut down one personal credit card (paid off), the business one is nearly maxed out.  My business account is barely above water because of two bad dance trips that cost me more money than they made me.  (I had a medical emergency at one club, and the other was so crappy that I paid the contract kill-fee rather than waste my time working for them.) There are also checks owed to me for promo assignments, that are not scheduled to arrive until I am in Florida.  It's pretty freaking scary.  Loki gets paid tomorrow, so that helps.  Frankly, I am completely stressed out, but I have faith that things will work out.  If worse comes to worse, I will ask mom to help me.  Hopefully that will not be necessary.
• Getting back to Kavenbach on a future project.

Fortunately, there are many bits of silver lining:

• Loki actually HAS a production schedule for Killer Dyke that he has been keeping.
• My out of control diabetes is finally getting back under control.
• The Pure Talent School of Dance for Feature Entertainers (NSFW/Web-MA, but awesomer than awesome!)
  
• FLORIDA and FRIENDS!!!
• Loki is nearly done with making the exterior of our home PRETTY!
• I am pretty much caught up with everything FINALLY!

On that note, I make y'all smile with a bit of Ces't La Vie by B*Witched.